New Year, Old Me

Well, I haven't written in a while. That isn't due to a lack of events to write about -- more due to a lack of motivation to write it. I actually have a couple of drafts of things that are no longer relevant, like a very fall weekend Makenna and I had a couple months ago. I just never got around to finishing it.

And that's the main theme of my life.

I've tried to change on numerous occasions. To be more dedicated, to be more intentional. I inevitably just lose motivation and stop trying. That's why I don't believe in New Year's resolutions. There's more to changing than just saying "I want to change." More than a desire for betterment, you need to set yourself up for success.

For example, I know that one of my biggest problems is wasting time. I just let a little time go, and then a little more, and soon I haven't done anything I planned for the day, and everything feels hopeless and why am I even trying and now my dreams are shot before I even gave them a fair chance.

To combat that, right now I'm setting up a calendar on my phone that will alert me every time a new item pops up on my schedule. Shower? Alert. Lunch? Alert. Go to the gym? Alert. This is something new, so who knows how well it will work for me. But it's worth a try. And it's better than resigning myself to missing out on all I want out of life.

Blogging is on that schedule, so hopefully there will be more from me soon.